I am at a crossroads in my life. I love our little apartment, and I love the security and privacy and the feeling of ownership. I mean that is what everyone looks forward to in life is growing up and leaving their family and creating their own. Well my family is faced with a choice. Stay in our apartment another year and start the mortgage process or move in with Travis' dad until we're ready. He needs some help and it would help us too. Which is Trav's thought process and I am over here crying and whaling and kicking and stomping, praying desperately to stay here.
It is hopeless. I feel hopeless. But I am starting to realize I am creating my own hopelessness. I shouldn't be worrying about the road ahead. I should rest in Christ. Have faith in his plans and go with the flow. I am still terrified but I am reaching out my shaky hand and letting go of my worry. Our lease is up in 8 weeks and I will see where my Lord takes me.
"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."
-Psalm 27:14
Thank you for listening,
Carryn
